Thread:That1Girl/@comment-15215573-20150925155335/@comment-25328337-20150925175952

Block message of Peace

My actions this morning were not acceptable. I apologize for all the things I did and I hope you all will forgive me. I regret all of them and I wish that I could erase this and make it right. I would apologize for all those I have hurt especially Tyler, Aria, Erlend, Connor, Max, Justin, and many more people I have done mean things to. This apology is long-overdue and I should have apologized after hurting you guys. I am deeply sorry.

In the future when I am not banned, I plan not to be as mean and not do all the things that got me banned in the first place. By 2016 I want to improve my overall image on this wiki, as a user. Please don't be like "That's not possible," and other things like that. I WILL make it happen!

My past is hard to deal with. Not only here but in real life. Let's just say I did something very embarrassing in grades five and six. Part of the reason I went to a different school for grades seven and eight was because of this. But my mom changed jobs and if she didn't I wouldn't be at this school right now writing this. Being with the people I was in fifth and sixth grade has really set me on edge. I literally begged my mom to not make me go here, but yeah. She was all like "They probably have forgotten," and "Show them who you really are,". Nobody has forgotten. It being held over my head and it's a huge weight on my shoulders and they make fun of me for it everyday. There are specific people who I can tell, think I'm crazy. Which I'm not. (I'm talking about people I know irl). If I had the chance to erase my past here, I'd take it in a heartbeat.

This weak has been a mix of good and bad thing and I'm not sure what to make of it. Pros: Cons:
 * Took the best photo in photography
 * Made cheer team
 * Feeling actually happy but with happiness comes craziness
 * Got 97% on science test (found this out just after the ban was put in place.)
 * My marks are fairly good
 * My psychologist...
 * It's been a hard week
 * Nobody will LET ANYTHING GO!
 * It's hard to get people to like me after my past
 * Felt really crazy
 * God this depression...
 * Feelings of rage, anger, and lots of mixed emotions.

This is not completely an excuse to get my ban removed. This is what my days have been like. I'm sorry for everything and I hope I can improve on my actions. But now I'm lost in paradise   17:59, September 25, 2015 (UTC)